On a Saturday morning two springs ago, my receptionist, Debbie, arrived at our rural family practice around 8:00 a.m. to find
an elderly woman waiting in the parking lot. She was dressed in a robe, nightgown, and slippers, and accompanied by a middle-aged
couple.
Debbie ushered the family into the waiting room, and asked the woman—whom I'll call Mrs. Hamilton—how we could help her. Her
son and daughter-in-law answered for her. They told Debbie that—except for the birth of her children five decades before—Mrs.
Hamilton, now 88, had never visited a doctor. This morning's visit, in fact, was simply to appease them. "She just didn't
seem like herself," they explained.
I felt uneasy when Debbie relayed this information. The family's feeling that something was amiss—along with their vague descriptions
of Mrs. Hamilton's fatigue—didn't give me much to go on. Sorting out such inconclusive symptoms would likely prove frustrating.
Nevertheless, I agreed to see Mrs. Hamilton right after I saw my first patient of the morning.
As I entered the exam room, I found a woman who looked younger than her years—and her cheerful smile only added to her relatively
youthful appearance. Her daughter-in-law—who remained with her in the exam room—seemed anxious by comparison, despite being
a nurse.
"You're going to be surprised, Doctor" Checking Mrs. Hamilton's blood pressure, I noticed extensive skin changes over her right anterior chest wall. Through her
thin nightgown, I could also see a few marbled nodules covering her right breast. Her eyes caught mine, and she smiled, "You're
going to be surprised, Doctor." I raised my eyebrows in recognition: This wasn't going to be a routine visit, I thought.
I sat down and took her history. She said that her right breast had slowly become engulfed by a painless, leathery rash over
the past year. She'd let the process run its course, she said, since she lived alone and didn't want to burden her family.
But her fatigue had increased recently, requiring her to spend more time on the couch. She'd also noticed a swelling in her
lower legs. Further questioning didn't elicit much more information.
My physical exam was more revealing. While Mrs. Hamilton's vital signs were normal and her neurological functions intact,
her exam revealed enlarged axillary lymph nodes, multiple engorged nodules over her leathery right breast, trace bilateral
rales, questionable hepatomegaly, and 2+ lower extremity edema.
Breast cancer, I thought, although I'd never actually seen breast cancer before, especially at this advanced stage. Until now, my experience was largely limited to mammograms. But a
spot on a film didn't come close to having the same impact as the untreated pathology I saw before me now.
I conveyed my findings—that what I'd seen was overwhelmingly consistent with metastatic breast cancer—to the two women. The
daughter-in-law became silent and visibly tense, while Mrs. Hamilton seemed almost bemused. Obviously, I was confirming something
she'd known about, and lived with, for at least a year, perhaps longer. Her eyes again met mine—and I couldn't help but blink.
We talked over possible diagnostic and treatment options, but the patient wasn't interested in any referral or hospital admission.
She agreed to a biopsy of the overlying skin, providing I would do it now.
Assisted by the daughter-in-law, I performed a 5 mm punch biopsy of the purplish, fungating breast tissue, suturing the defect
with a single 4-0 interrupted nylon suture. I held the suture for the daughter-in-law to cut, and then both of us cleaned
and dressed the wound.
I gave Mrs. Hamilton a script for furosemide, a requisition for lab work, a chest X-ray referral, and an appointment for a
follow-up visit. Before leaving, she thanked me for seeing her on such short notice. Then, again smiling that youthful smile
of hers, she reassured me that everything would be fine.
Taking a chance on the wheel of fortune I finished my morning visits, and then entered her pathology sample registration into the lab computer for an afternoon pick-up.
I wanted the sample read quickly—and the lab was willing to cooperate.
Mrs. Hamilton had her lab and radiological work done that Monday. Her CBC and chest X-ray were normal, but her chemistry panel
showed a markedly elevated calcium level and a mildly elevated alkaline phosphatase.
Four days after her Saturday visit with me, the pathology report arrived, confirming my worst suspicions: "Infiltrating carcinoma
consistent with ductal breast primary, invading skin and apparently within lymphatic vessels," the report said.
I contacted Mrs. Hamilton to confirm her follow-up visit, but she politely declined to come in. She preferred to hear what
I had to say now, on the phone, with her family members listening in. I told them all about the report and its findings, and
then ended by discussing and making plans for hospice care.
I admired Mrs. Hamilton's serenity in the face of death. All her long life, she'd lived blissfully free from the anxieties
that inevitably afflict all of us who are preoccupied with preventive care and good health. Because she permitted herself
no doctor visits, she never worried about bad cholesterol levels, or an inconclusive mammogram, or a problematic Pap smear,
or the controversies over hormone replacement therapy. Instead, she took a chance, spun the wheel of fortune, and lived life
on her own terms, just as she would die on her own terms.
Death came 20 days after her first—and only—visit to me. She was at home, under the care of hospice, and in the company of
her family.